I seem to only be motivated by stress in order to write.

This summer I started trauma therapy with a new therapist.

I was uncomfortable about going. The last time I tried trauma therapy with a different clinic it didn’t end well.

After 10 weeks my Therapist said that I am managing my life very well and didn’t see the need for me to continue when I was doing so well.

Hang on now: I am now going to sessions twice a month and I have a lot to talk about.

This month I have started helping my parents with yard work an organizing the house.

So seeing my parents every week could cause some upset.

So to the point here:?My therapist told me that my lack of feelings since around 7 years old is a trauma response.

I already know this. I have been told this before.

I don’t want to feel anything about my childhood or early adult years.

I am tired. My body hurts. I am not sleeping well. I have been sick all the time since I was 10. I just don’t want to think about the negative stuff.